Before Mid-Term Exams (Just random thoughts)

Hello there,

It's been a while since I last did a short-ish post, so I thought I'd give it another go.

Pretty eventful day today, actually. My girlfriend's mother picked us up at campus, then I drove the car back. We went to my place first, saying nobody could pick me up today and I had no money for a cab if I went to J's place. In reality, though, I just needed an excuse to get her to my house so I could give her her birthday gift and surprise cake. As far as I can tell, she was really happy about it, so I'm definitely happy it worked.

Her birthday was a few days ago, and I left her gift at home, so I had no choice but give it when we got back, i.e. today. As for the gift, I got her another book, so as far as I'm concerned, I still owe her another one to make up for the lack of variety. Will figure out what to make/buy later.

After she went back I watched a couple of DVDs: A Scanner Darkly (2006 I think) and Pirates of the Caribbean: Curse of the Black Pearl (2003). The original Pirates trilogy was much more fun and enjoyable for me than the fourth film. The first movie felt a lot like a throwback to the old romanticised swashbuckling movies and a little throwback to pirate myth and legends. The second and third really delved deeper with the mythology and mysticism, on a much bigger scale. The fourth one kinda did the same thing, but it felt a lot like I was just watching Jack fooling around.

Well, that brings and abrupt end to this letter. Begging your pardon, but I'm feeling a bit sleepy. I have mid-term tests starting next Tuesday, and truth be told I'm not entirely confident about them. But then again nobody normally is..

Until next time,

Zet Valentine

Damn (I Haven't Posted in a While)

Heya. It's been a while since I last posted something. You'd think that I'd have posted something on Valentine's/Chinese New Year (this being The Valentine Letters and such), huh? Well, I'd love to say that college got in the way, but truth be told, I've quite run out of things to talk about. Seems I've been experiencing a creativity block the past few weeks. Anyway, I've got time to kill, so I figured I'd give it a shot.

Something that's been going around in my mind for the past few days is the movie-favorite, oft-repeated phrase, "I will/would fight for you". Now, in old times, you might actually take this literally - someone would actually fight someone else for another certain someone, win the fight, then live happily ever after. Close book, cue "awww" and happy tears, roll credits.

Let's face it, each and every one of us would like to think that, should the occasion arise, we would heroically rise and do battle for the sake of our loved ones. For the most part, we really would. Protecting what matters is perhaps part of our basic human instinct. What most of us aren't prepared for, however, is when the threat we have to face is sometimes ourselves.

What happens then?
What happens when we become the very thing we swore to protect them from? How do you protect someone you love.. from yourself?

When you first held her in your arms, you knew that you'd never let any hurt, pain, suffering come to them if you could help it. But then you see her going through such pain and hardship, more than anything you could ever think of, and you're the one who caused it, what would you do? Could you live with yourself after that? Even though she says it's okay, that everything's fine, would you ever forgive yourself for doing something like that?

My answer: you just have to. The phrase "love hurts" doesn't mean you should be some pessimistic lowlife and just live with the pain. It means that the person you love isn't the one who can simply make you happier than you've ever felt, but they can also make you feel more pain then you've ever imagined.
It may sound odd at first, I know. But put it this way: God is capable of doing both great and terrible things. If God were only able to do great things, if God were limited to only doing good, then that means there is something higher, more powerful than God, and I'd rather bow to that higher being.

It's extremely complicated, even for me, but If you've fell in love before, you'd know what I'm talking about.

Think about it.

-Zet

P.S.
I've got a new "bachelor's pad": Apt. Mediterania, A/23 C/J. Renting it for the year. Have a looksee if you're in the neighborhood. (Special shoutout to dS members and friends)

Out of Pure Boredom (aka Follow the Girlfriend)

Well, I've got nothing to do here at my boarding house or whatever you call it, so I decided to follow what my girlfriend did and make a list of my 25 random thoughts and post them. Here they are:

1. Gw gak yakin gw bisa bertahan ngekos terus
   
2. I'm even less sure that I can live on my own in an apartment
3. Tomorrow's my first anniversary with my girlfriend!
4. I wish I didn't have a quiz tomorrow so I could hang out with her all day
5. Jarang-jarang nih sinyal lagi bagus.
6. Gw ngerasa masih belum berhasil sebagai pacar
7. Cowok mana sih gak bisa dijadiin tempat curhat ama ceweknya?
8. Nggak, bukan macam yang terbaik
9. Hahah, knapa gw jadi negatif ya?
10. Karakter HIMJA kan positif.
11. Yey dia sms!
12. My back hurts
13. I need to go to the spine center thingy
14. And the dentist
15. Unexpectedly, I miss my sister
16. I'll deny it wholeheartedly if anyone asks.
17. I need a haircut
18. Did I tell you tomorrow's my first anniversary?
19. I suddenly wish I could afford a fancy dinner
20. I miss playing the bass
21. Should I take vocal lessons as well?
22. Or maybe guitar lessons?
23. Am I trying to start a one-man band?
24. For some reason, they had a sale on condoms at Alfa mart last week, a pack for 9.900
25. ASTROBOY!! XD

Cheerio.
-Zet